Balancing...LIFE!!

Yup!! That's how my house is looking right now. It's horrible! I hate clutter and not being organized...so all this "stuff" everywhere tends to put me in a bad mood and I find myself locking myself in my room most of the time. Not only that, but my apartment complex wants to do all this maintenance crap right in the middle of my move. What's up with that?!? All I can do is take it one day at a time. Other than that, life is good. Still working and packing.

Speaking of work...my husband interviewed for a job position at WCF. He wants to start working 2 jobs so that we can get all of our debt taken care of. Not sure how I feel about him doing it because we hardly see each other as it is. Not saying that one is more important than the other, it's just hard to balance family, work and church as it stands now. I don't know how we'll do it if he works 2 jobs. We'll just have to wait and see what the verdict is. I appreciate my husband and all that he does. He's an amazing man!!

On the other side of working and moving...we've been trying to spend as much time with my Aunty Lisa. She is battling terminal cancer and although her spirits are VERY high, her body seems to be wanting to go the other direction. She has been through chemo and radiation and is still trying to fight. She was just released from the hospital a couple of days ago after being in there for over a week. As if cancer isn't hard enough to fight, she has a large mass in her stomach that is growing and causing her a ton of pain. I hate seeing her hurt and she doesn't like to see people feel sorry for her, so we all try to be strong with her. The doctors basically told her that there wasn't anything else that they could do for her but make her comfortable. They insisted on her going home and being on hospice (giving her 6 months or less), but she decided to continue to fight and go to the Huntsman Center. After a couple days, she changer her mind and decided to go ahead with hospice and she's now home. I wish I didn't have to work so much...that way I can spend more time with her. The few days off that I have from work, I try to do all the duty's of a wife...laundry, packing, cooking, cleaning, bills, etc. and by the time I'm done with those things, I find myself back at work NOT having gone to visit Aunty Lisa. I've cried so much lately just thinking about my Aunty Blue, Aunty Lisa & Aunty Eda and all that they have gone and are going through. I don't know any other way to cope with it besides crying...and sleeping. I hope and pray that her spirits will continue to be lifted and whatever our Heavenly Father's plan is for Aunty Lisa, I hope that she doesn't have to suffer with pain and she may know how much she is loved.

I guess that's it for now. =) Keep smiling and BE HAPPY!!